My best friend got engaged. We had suspicions but nothing could have prepared us for it actually happening. You know when you are so happy you cry. Ok so I am a crier anyway, but elated is not enough to describe the joy I have for this soul. She called on me at her engagement get together to say something when everyone was making toasts, and words left me… words left me. Now I sit here, with a heart full of words to say and no one to say them to.
My heart is so full. Full of joy, I couldn’t think of a person in the world who deserved this more if I tried. Full of excitement for the road ahead. For the new phase in her life she has just stepped into as someone’s fiancé. We have been through so much over this last decade, heartaches and joys. Fun times, laughs and oh so many memories. Some cringe worthy stuff and some drama. All of which create the colourful past we now find ourselves looking back on.
We had planned this day in our minds, how it was going to happen, when, where. So many times, with so many different stories. But it could never have prepared us for today and it actually being here. I guess what I’m trying to say is that, we so often wish away moments, phases, and people in our lives. Because it hurts, because of trials, heartaches and times where we have to pull ourselves together. But ulitimatly those times, prepare us for THESE moments. They get us here, in the bigger scheme of things. Whether they make us smarter, mature-r or more ready to receive the gift I don’t know. Just that they get us here. The moments of complete clarity where it all just makes sense. And for that, I would go back and do it all over.
Friend, there was a little poem that we would recite to one another after disappointments that I felt really rings true. That is what I would like to leave you with, you know it well so just a small extract is necessary. But when looking at the past, and looking toward the future remember…
You won’t do it at the right time. You’ll be late. You’ll be early. You will get re-routed. You’ll get delayed. You will change your mind. And then your heart. It’s not going to turn out like we thought.