I’m struggling. Mom life is kicking my ass right now!

The last two weeks have notably been two of the toughest weeks I’ve had in a long while. Except for that time Daniel fell and cut his head open, and had to have surgery. Not the worst but really tough. My home has been an absolute “germfest”! It started with the toddler getting terrible fevers, I was off work but it passed over soon. Then Emilie got sick, I was worried but not overly. Husband got sick, I started and we ended up at the Dr last week. Today we were back in the Dr’s office where I received some crappy deductions that made me feel – even crappier.

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I’m sure that going through this is part of the right of passage when it comes to motherhood. I am absolutely and completely spent though, I stood outside the Dr’s office today and sobbed. Moment of extreme weakness, coupled with the fact that I haven’t slept much the last 48hrs. I continued to feel extremely sorry for myself. You see, although Daniel is doing much better, he’s still teething. Not sleeping much, being a little gremlin at night. Ian is being a grouch with man-flu, and Emilie… she’s been vomiting. Our nights have been rough between the gremlin and the thrower-upper.

I’m telling you all this because, I’m building up to a mom confession, one that I feel should come with some background. You see today the Dr told me that he suspects Emilie has “whooping cough”. I don’t have any experience with it, so I was none the wiser – although his tone did give me the suspicion that this is a little more serious than the common flu. Included with the fact that he will be calling to check on her often.

I missed it. I missed the signs that my child was really struggling.

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This terrible cough, that caused her to vomit was suspending her breath. She told me. I heard her. But I wasn’t listening, I was hanging washing, cooking, trying to get her to study. Sorting my toddler, and I have 50 025 excuses but none of them makes me feel better. I know this happens, I know I’m not the worst mother to set foot on planet earth.

I am so tired, tired in places I didn’t know could be, tired. Lack of sleep is a silent killer, a killer of confidence, creativity, a killer of logic and mostly sanity. I’m trying to remain intentional about my parenting, failing but trying. That counts right? If this is you too – maybe you need a break. I certainly do! I’m not going to be getting one soon by the looks of things, but I will be doing things that make me feel good when I can – like write my sorrows on a page, send it into the internet and hope it helps someone somewhere.

Be kind to yourself, you are the best mom your kids will ever get!

In the Meantime – The 936 pennies competition is still open until 4 pm today so if you haven’t entered yet, be sure to check it out!

Honouring the Man of God in your life this Father’s Day!

I often speak about my husband, commenting on the father that he is and isn’t. I feel like I honour him for the husband that he is more than anything, and obviously the support that he gives me. However, I hardly ever honour him for the Man of God that he is to our family. I do, in my prayers, but I don’t think I tell him enough. I definitely don’t show my gratitude that I have this man that takes his role as the head of our home so seriously. Whether in prayer or in action – He is what God’s called him to be and he blesses me with that every day.

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But you, Man of God, flee from all this and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance and gentleness. 1 Timothy 6:11

It’s why when Christian Art Gifts sent us their Man of God set, I was so thrilled. It was an opportunity to honour him, with some really cool gifts. The Lux Leather engraved keyring in a woody tin, serves as a sweet reminder to stay faithful. Keyrings are personal favourite for me, I love little secret treasures that you can carry around with you daily. Perfect for winter, a inscribed coffee mug is the kind of gift to inspire your special dude. Add in a good coffee and some biltong, for an extra treat.

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Also included in this beautiful wood/leather finish set is a pen set, a display plaque, and a variety of stainless steel metal and black rings. A genuine leather engraved wallet – because men are always needing these! Who knows how their wallets get so tatty but Ian is always needing a new one. The gift I’m most excited about for Ian is the water bottle, double walled-vacuum sealed, this bottle is suitable for hot or cold insulation perfect for my gym loving caffeine geek husband! These gifts retail from R44.95 – R399.95 – coupled with other sets like “Best Dad Ever” they can be found online under the Father’s Day promotions currently on the CUM Books website here.

Moms are the best at shopping for those they love. I hope that these gifts for dad, give you fresh ideas for how to make his day special! I know the Man of God in our lives is going to be over the moon. I’m probably a little more over the moon than he, just because I get to give him a pat on the back. Not just for being an incredible dad, but for leading by example and being the head of our home!

In the Meantime – What have you planned to spoil the Man of God in your life?


FOMO is real! Lowdown: ECMeetup here!

If you follow any of the Eastern Cape bloggers your social media will be filled snippets from our experience. An event for bloggers and brands to learn, make connections and bridge the gap. The event this year was amaze-balls! I know how real the “fomo” can get, so a lowdown: EC Meet Up just for you is in order. Although each of these “meetups” has been awesome, they really do just get better! Personally, I attend with one goal in mind – get energized. Whenever I leave a meet-up I am completely refreshed and ready to be the best blogger I can be.

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Investing your time with your children intentionally – 936 Pennies

Are you one of those people who get to work on a Monday wishing for Friday? Waiting for 4pm? That next holiday or weekend away? All the while wishing the time in between these “events” in our lives away? Me too. Sadly! A few weeks ago though my perspective on time was shifted when an amazing new release by Christian Art Distributors landed on my desk -“936 pennies”. From the day your child is born until they turn 18, you have 936 weeks.

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She thinks she’s not good enough! Prayers for My Child!

Be a good parent they say. It sounds easy enough right? Sigh! I’m having a “woe is me” day – where I feel like a failed parent. (Again!) I have those days – I’m sure you do too. Where all I can do is say prayers for my child. I realised that she is insecure about one of her features, something that she, has somewhere between the start of her school career, and now, become aware of. This awareness that she has is basically that this feature isn’t like everyone else’s. Initially mommy instincts? March down to the school and just bring down the house! Who told her that she wasn’t like everyone else? Even so, who made her believe that this was a bad thing?

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